The ahness of home. I think about going to the hotel on Monday and it makes me giddy.Read More
I walk up to the third floor, walk down to the ground floor, walk to Proton, walk back, shop, unpack, travel to and from Boston, and radiate…. this is what I do.
My doctor told me after my session on Friday, that I may be doing too much, that I should consider staying in Boston on the weekend…that the traveling may be contributing to my exhaustion and my general state of unwellness…that what I’m going ...Read More
I’ve peaked,…I’m able to look over the mountain and see the other side. It’s downhill from this point on; from now on I will have completed more Proton sessions than I have left to complete. On the other side of the mountain, I’ve found my energy. Knowing I have less distance to go than I’ve already traveled has renewed me. I even feel slightly less sick today, don’t know if it’s ...Read More
Today was my worst day yet. Today was the first day since I’ve started Proton Therapy that I found myself wondering if I could make the walk to the hospital. It’s three/four blocks away and yet it may as well be a mile. Three/four weeks ago, three/four blocks was nothing. The only thought that rallies my spirit is that Mr. Dubenschmeimer must be feeling as lousy as I’m feeling.
My friend Eve ...Read More
I’m thinking as hard as Mondays are, Tuesdays are the hardest days. Even though Monday is a travel and radiate day, I’m coming off Sunday, which is a day of resting, and relaxing in my own home, which does make it a bit easier. On Tuesdays I feel sick because I’m lonely, and lonely because I’m sick. I have friends that are with me, and who visit…it’s not about that, it’s about not ...Read More
Oh boy, it’s radiation/traveling Monday again. My friend Lauren has volunteered for service this morning. My appointment at Proton isn’t until 6:10P, that’s the latest its ever been, and I’m going to take advantage of this by deciding to leave home a bit later in the morning. Lauren and I leave at 11A. I’ve only known Lauren for a year or so, but she’s one of those friends you meet ...Read More
I’m not a soda drinker. I never took the Pepsi Challenge,…I haven’t tapped into “The Real Thing”. I never got hooked on the high caloric, high caffeine, low nutritional value soda experience. I guess somewhere along the line I decided to grab that experience elsewhere.
When I got home this weekend, I was feeling the way I had all week, like I had been on the high seas in a small boat…no land ...Read More
Writing this blog has shown me that there are several small stories that happen within everyone’s day that may be worth telling, but if we don’t write them down, we don’t remember them. So I digress…the townhouse building that I’m staying in has three apartments, one on each floor. I’m on the top floor. There is an old woman (I’m not sure how old though…old starts getting older, as I get older); ...Read More
My friend Leslie and her daughter arrived on Thursday from Long Island to take me, (feels more like rescue me after this week) from Boston and bring me home.
This has been a hard week, both emotionally and physically. I feel sicker this week than I did last, and the novelty of the travel back and forth has worn off. I like Boston, and I love seeing all my friends, but I miss my ...Read More
Got together for lunch with two longtime friends from college today. We all went to school at BU. They stayed here, I went back to New York. It was great to see them, it had been a while since we all sat together eating lunch…the dining digs were definitely more upscale than back then, the conversation topics were different, what we ate was different…back then it was more like a Greek Pizza and ...Read More